A hint

I decided I needed an easter project over the long weekend, and bought this rather fabulous book because it had by far the best pattern for a toy cat that I've seen so far. So I bought it, and well, okay, here's a picture of what I made:

And that's probably made it pretty clear where we've come to in our decision about whether to ask for twins.

Obviously.... we've not got any way of knowing whether it will actually happen or not. But we've decided that we want it to happen, if it can, and have notified the appropriate person. (Turns out the appropriate person is on holidays, so we haven't heard back from them yet about their opinion, but that's a whole 'nother story). So. We'll see. (By the way, before you think that we've just gone crazy, we do have situation-specific reasons for thinking it has a more-than-zero chance of working out). It's still pretty secret, mainly because we are VERY aware that it might not happen, and we don't want people to be disappointed if we announce that we've been referred just one baby! But we really feel like it's the right thing to go for IF it's possible. And we've told my mother that she might need to knit a second baby cardigan at short notice, so the jumper situation is under control.

Lately I have caught myself wondering whether part of the appeal of twins is that it makes the 18 month ish waiting period seem a bit less unreasonable. My 'waiting for baby' counter has ticked past 9 months now, and I'm sure I heard it laugh nastily at me as it did so. The longer I'm in this, the less I'm tempted to make 'paper pregnancy' comparisons, but somehow that nine month marker tasted a bit sour. Mostly, I'm really having a hard time accepting the fact that I'm still at work - back when the government was processing papers faster than they are now, I had really hoped to be travelling in April. Someone close to me who got pregnant waaaaaay after we started our process has just gone on maternity leave and dangit, when's it going to be my turn? I'm beginning to feel like I'm just marking time here and I don't like that feeling.

Don't get me wrong, though, the main appeal of twins is.... twins! Mentally dividing the waiting period in half is just a bonus.

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By the way, I got a comment from Kerry a few days ago (which CRACKED ME UP! please start a blog, Kerry, so I can read it) which made me realise that I don't have my email address on my sidebar anymore. It's write2claudia@gmail.com - I'll put it here because I keep promising myself to sort out my sidebar but haven't done it yet. When I do finally do this, I also want to update my blog list. I've realised that lots of people who I started reading when I started are now home with babies, which is fantastic! And when I think about it - incredible! All those babies in happy families in this one year... I get a bit weepy when I think about it. But I'd also love to be reading some people who are newer - got any recommendations? There are also a few people who I found through other blogs and commented on but now cannot find again, which makes me feel very stupid. If you are one of those people, can you let me know? And if you aren't, but have a blog, can you let me know that too? And I'll try to sort myself out!